dont panic

colleen is gone.  she left for LA this morning.  it was really sad.  I hung out at her house and watched the first season of SNL with her mom while she packed.  Then when she finally finished around one we took a short nap on the couch and drove into town.  Its about 5 now and im suprisingly awake, running on two hours of sleep.
Colleen is the greatest, she called me after i left to say thank  you for everything i did in helping her get ready and taking her to the airport.   shes amazing that way, shes not one to say it in person, but she always let you know.
She will be in LA indefinatly.  She is hanging out with Kristin, her best friend.  Part of me wonders if she will never come back, but then i remember that the only reason she likes LA is because of kristin and i dont think thats enough to keep her there.  She is impossible to read or predict sometimes.  But there is a good chance that she will be coming up to portland to visit me when she leaves SOCal.  And that is the most exciting part of her leaving.

im packing all the small stuff from my room.  I have been without the big stuff for just over a week, but all the small shit that can fit in my car im packing now.  Its reminding me of breaking up.  Everything of colleens thats ended up here gets put into a seperate pile, and that which is ours is thought on as to who should have it.  Moving sucks.  Hopefuly Colleenie will be up in portland soon as well.

i hate making plans with someone and they cancel or change the plans or are really late.  This shit pisses me off like nothing else.  The point of making a time to be somewhere is to be at that place at that time, and prepare ahead of time to be there.  dont call 20 minutes after your suppposed to be somewhere and change plans.

i think my ipod is dead.  one of the saddest days in my life.  Last night i came home and dropped it as i was getting out of the car.  It hit the pavement and slid underneath my moms car.  I dove under there and picked it up.  This morning i noticed a few new scratches on it but thought nothing of it.  Then it wouldnt play anything all day and recently it wont hardly even turn on, and when it does i get the mister yuck face.  I hate that face, except when its not on my ipod.  Services will be held forever, or until i get the funds to buy a new one and your condolences will be appreciated.
RIP IPOD

today was so hard at work.  it was my last day.  There were tears all around.  kids crying, me crying.  Leaving the door was impossible.  It is a wonderful feeling knowing that i have affected so many lives, and they to mine.  The older 5th graders were the worst as i have known them the longest, and a couple 1st graders that i have known since last year.  They gave me a card that all of them signed, i got a couple of christmas presents and i made them all cupcakes.

i spent the morning at the Craterian learning the light board.  Im gonna be running the lights for the Nutcracker this week.  It sounds really intimidating all that i had to learn today, but i think i will be fine.  Its really just hitting one button throughout the show.

Then i had to pay off charter for when i used to live in the apartment.  Andy never cancelled the account.  They sent me to collections and i never had any idea that anything ever was going on.  If i ever see that fucker again i will scream.  Hes married now and i wish him lots and lots of bad ju ju.  fucker.

Im off to work, only one more week left.  Have a wonderful day!!!

my parents got another dog today. Its another dauschound (spelling??). He is a long hair instead of a short and hes black. Hes really cool. Totally opposite personality from rudy, but they get along really well. They like to hump each other. His name is Max.

Rudy

Max

Moving is getting so close, im so excited. I might be moving the week after next but will spend the holidays and new years here in town. So so close, and OT will be here soon as well. Very excited to meet her.

Next week is my last week at work and im very dissapointed. Im happy to be leaving but am frustrated that i wont be able to hang out with the kids anymore. They bring a bad day to wonderful and a wonderful day to amazing. A job that i will go in on my day off just to hang out is something you can not beat. There are a few terror kids, but there are a couple that im gonna miss. Nick, Hannah, Austin, Sierra and Isiah are going to be missed the most. I love my job.

Ive been listening to Elliott Smith a lot latley. I always do around this time of year. Must be the weather or something. He will alway be my favorite of all favorites. You should check him out.

im waiting for lauren to come and pick me up.  We are going to celebrate the end of the term…well i am.  im done with school for the term…done done done…DONE!!!  The last week or so has been a lot of work and felt like it would never end.  i maintianed a fairly lively lifestyle and got all of my work done.  I could not have done it without colleen and although she doesnt read my blog, i thank her to no end.

just a couple more weeks until portland.  it is getting so so so close.  I can not wait!!! its so exciting.  Its going to be a lot of work once i get there, but im up for it.

im currently listening to ‘kind of like spitting’.  you all should check them out if you dont already know them.  I like the album ‘bridges worth burning’.  Their use of lyrics and music is great.

whiskey plus my apple cider goes wonderful together.